Why Did I?

Often, i wondered how much i've grown over the years. Regret is the word often i hate to use... too much i've gone through these years... the many questions, doubt about life and love.

Lack of confidence brought me to spoil the sweetness of it. If only i kept the known all to myself... it lives to become a perfect fantasy. Only if i had...

Hoping... i look forward to what i've been waiting...

I learn to realise the quote ' the greatest thing in life, is to love and be loved'. Learn to understand it, and feeling it personally.

Years of waiting and still waiting patiently.

Leave ends... goes back camp!

Exams over, still tired. Body aching all over and to bear the fact that i'm going back camp later... thats something not to be happy about. 14 hours of sleep really makes me feel much better after so many days of insufficient sleep.

Stuff needed back to camp are still left unpacked... my bedsheets and quilt cover stinks from the left over smoke. Been smoking excessively in my room. I'm really contradicting myself to say i hate the smell although i'm a smoker myself. Whatever~! Have to get my stuff packed soon... and to get my bedsheets and quilt cover washed later so it'll get dry before my next book out.

Been to mum's stall to help out on Saturday morning. It was rather busy, and somehow i've come to decide that i'll go help her out at the stall every weekend morning as long as i can wake up. Until her business starts to make profit and affort part-timers... she has been complaining alot lately. I'll help her save some expenses :) *tofu_toy becomes douhua_boy* ewww..!!

Unwanted Call

I'm really pissed off right now. Look at the time now... I've set my alarm clock to 9 in the morning before i slept at 2 last night. Hoping that i would study when i wakes up. All thanks to an asshole! A campmate i hated!

I fucking thank you right here for disturbing my sleep! Calling me 3+ in the morning just for some lame shite! I'm saying right here to YOU i'm not obligated to help YOU and therefore, this is the last time i'm gonna help you(since i've already helped). You lost $$$ in soccer betting in the name of greed, serve you right! But thats got nothing to do with me. I really regret helping you. It makes me look so stupid!

I really wonder what should i do right now... i'm dead beat but yet i can't sleep. Been rolling in bed for hours but just could'nt sleep. Just as i'm typing this post, my handphone rang again... ITS HIM! Can't he just let me off? Or can't he not take me for granted? Damnit! I'm not gonna answer anyway...

Sometimes i wonder... am i too nice? even to people i detest...?

It does'nt do me good helping lame people over something that got nothing to do with me. I swear!

Really not in the right mood now... Leave me alone!