A strong felt misses

They are leaving... tonite. A trip to Taiwan for a 2 1/2 weeks training. Overseas training was what i hoped for ever since i was in Army. No matter how people described the training are going to be, tedious, its still what i hoped for. How many times in life can you go overseas? Not for pleasure, but for training? Climbing up a 70 degrees elevated mountain to hit an objective, sweating out together, shag out together. Puffing a single stick of cigerette with a group of bonded people. I miss the days where we were out in the jungle... I really miss them.

I still remember the days of the field camps we went. Its deep inside me. The days were over, since a long time ago.

My papers are getting nearer... 2 weeks leave isn't enough. I'm tired. Worn out. Physically and mentally. I'm not pushing myself hard enough. I'm lethargic somehow. But i still gotta do it. I went so far, I gave up the Taiwan trip for it. I must push myself harder. I'll try...

Just hoping for the handful of inconsiderate people, not to play me out within this short period of time. Don't take MC please! I don't want to be called back to camp for being a guard reserve. I need you people's help. I need time desperately. Lets just hope...

Utterly Disappointed

Never was life fair, and never will it be. Some people are alive simply because it is against the law to eliminate them. Abusing their power on helpless people. The ugliness of human can never be concealed!

SAF 7 CORE VALUES:
1- Loyalty To Country
2- Leadership
3- Discipline
4- Professionalism
5- Fighting Spirits
6- Ethics
7- Care For Soldier
I still remember them. We have to recite them every water parades. Even though its been many months since i last recited it as a trainee.

Does a Commissioned Officer show enough PROFESSIONALISM when he simply charge a lowly ranked soldier only based on an one sided story? Where are the ETHICS? Believing only to a Warrant Officer without even looking into the matter? The understanding to the matter was not even clear. Framing me of using the handphone while on duty and not allowing for an explanation when i obviously was just checking the time. Was that a right thing to do? Without given chances to even explain myself. E-mails starts firing to all Branches and Company, receiving unwanted 'fame' overnight. How GREAT~! These conspiracy convinced me that army are not worth a single respect at all!

Tried all ways to explain myself, only to find my efforts gone to drain. Charge decided, without even giving an 'accused' a chance to speak up for himself. ETHICS? PROFESSIONALISM? My ASS! Change the Core Values People...

I'm utterly disappointed with the ugliness of these people. Having to swallow the defamation helplessly, simply because of the diffference of rank. The only help from my OC and CSM are to fight to lighten the charge even when they are convinced by me after listening to both sides of the story, they can't help much either. A Camp Commadant, a Lieutanent-Colonel, have far too much over-powered them. To go on fighting this case for myself seem redundant. Will CO believe what i say when i'm only a lowly ranked Private? Remember the conspiracy? If i'm not able to convince my CO, my charge doubled! Thinking of my oncoming exams, I chose not to take the risk to pursue and to swallow it real hard!

Well, its not as bad as being send to DB. Its a minor offence anyway. It leaves no record as well. 7days Stoppage of Leave(SOL) is short, but not in the case when you are framed. I'm trying to be nonchalant to this matter as i'm slowly seeing the greater picture of human mankind. The ugliness that is. I don't deny there are nice people around, just a handful of asshole do these despicable acts. I'll learn, learning day by day... till the day i'm enlightened.

2weeks in camp, i'll make good use of it to study real hard. *hopefully*

21st Birthday...

Saturday was fun... The initial plannings was alil troublesome though. Was @Dbl O. Everyone was so nice. The non-clubbers joined and the non-dancers danced. Alil red wine and beer settles the night with some cheeky dances. Thx you people for keeping me entertained that night! And Gracie... Thx for the present too! So thoughful of you:)

Was @Holland Village with Candice last night. Never did she ever forget my birthday ever since i started working for her. I remindered her many times not to buy me anything this year... she went ahead instead and bought me an Ellesse watch. It's so mean of me telling her i don't like the brand! Look how bad i can be*evil grin* But truthfully, I love the watch and afterall its a thought that counts. Thx you Candice!

Thx to the people who messaged me last night. You people did'nt forget my birthday! Haha...

Mum is buying me a necklace for my birthday. But i told her to buy some other time since she just started her soya bean business. All the machines and rental cost a bomb. I won't be wearing it anyway, just some memorial purpose. My brother have a necklace from mum on his 21st. It seems like its a tradition in our family. A symbol that marks 21.

Sadly to say, I'm going back camp today! A hard fought 1/2 day off is better then nothing. But i definitely won't mind longer offs:)

Here, in my own blog, I wish myself a Happy 21st Birthday! :)